I CAN FLY

人想說時, 自然會說

2012-02-09T22:43:00.000+08:00

Miss this beautiful place.

One post before the laptop travels with my dad.

Decided I should learn at least one musical instrument since I gave piano up when I was younger. Gonna try out the guitar now and my dad is sure that I will give up halfway again hahaha. He's probably 65% right. Gonna keep gearing up for new things in life! A little excited for what's coming up :)

Plans

2012-02-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

In the making of something special, it should turn out ok!! Can't wait for it to be done! Already drafting out some plans in my head for my birthday~ It might sound a little crazy.. But the whole idea is actually quite.. Simple. Hahaha I think I like the idea of being alone too much.

My Project Daily Snaps failed. I didn't keep up with my enthusiasm. But I'll make it a point to record all events and bits and pieces of my days. *rubs palms* So thankful for everything.

Getting our hands dirty

2012-02-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

I was the first to wash my hands hahaha.

CNY Outfits

2012-01-30T21:14:00.003+08:00

CNY 2012

2012-01-24T23:02:00.003+08:00

Saturday sales post

2012-01-21T14:00:00.001+08:00

Light-washed denim shorts is sold!

Sorry for the ugly creases! It will be neat and ironed when it reaches you. Email me at pinkmoolah@gmail.com or comment here.

My imagination gift to Dad

2012-01-21T01:53:00.000+08:00

Way before I started working, I've already planned to buy something for my father once I've earned my first salary. A branded wallet/pouch. I even imagined and played out the scene in my head. How would it be like walking into the store, paying for it, and watching my dad receiving it. I'd rehearsed this whole thing in my head for several times before.

When I actually got my first salary, reality hit me harder and my supposed gift turned non-existent.

We're not on the same boat after all.

2012-01-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

We might be on the same boat, but we will not get the same level of seasickness.

All of us set off in the same ship, after it reaches a certain point, we separate and jump onto smaller boats. Heading towards our desired direction. For some people, we may choose to jump onto random boats and see where it takes us to. Then we might decide to switch boats halfway, or just simply go with the flow. Just when we decide to 'go with the flow', the boat starts to sway, with thunderstorms frequently closing in. Which leaves persistent people a problem: To continue believing that the boat will reach a better place, or the boat will capsize? Or is swimming a better neutral option? To fight with the cold and fatigue from swimming seems to beat the idea though. My boat is currently on halt.

We're not on the same boat after all.

My 2011

2012-01-12T21:34:00.001+08:00

My 2011 was quite a peaceful ride, I guess.

I celebrated my birthday with surprises from my friends, met 羅志祥 (got so close for the first time), my job taking up a big part of my life and did something that I am very proud of. Attended JJ Lin's, Jolin Tsai's and Show Luo's concerts. Got weary for most of the time and.. I can't really remember the rest. My 2011 feels vague. Oh and I became a tour guide for a week in May by bringing a Taiwanese couple around our little island, and discovering them through easy conversations. Christmas was warm.

In 2012, I just want to follow my heart.

AMeiZING 2011

2012-01-08T19:38:00.002+08:00

As ridiculous as it sounds, I cried.

Sick and thinking

2012-01-04T21:58:00.002+08:00

Hi. I've been sick and thinking.

Geannie's 17th birthday

2011-12-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

We celebrated Geannie's birthday in advance!

Hope you had a good one!

Christmas 2011

2011-12-27T22:16:00.000+08:00

Snippets of my Christmas..

Merry Christmas!

Veggie Bowl

2011-12-24T13:16:00.001+08:00

These were missed out from Thursday's daily snaps. If you were wondering, the solo egg was mine. The sauce is awesome.

Daily Snaps: 22/12 & 23/12

2011-12-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

Photo by Channy

Took a risky Comfort cab ride earlier on, thought the meter would hit $20+ so I kept panicking. I think the cab driver saw me fidgeting so he sped~ Thank you leh uncle~ Looking forward to my 5am Saturday and Christmas!

Hello to you reading this! Just wanna say thank you for the greetings, it's really sweet :)

Really appreciate when people (even if it's just one or two) text me asking how am I doing and everything. ♥

Thank you thank you thank you!!!

Daily Snaps: 21/12

2011-12-22T00:05:00.000+08:00

STOP WAITING

2011-12-20T23:48:00.001+08:00

Past week's shots

I've been itching to write.

How should I begin?

Sometimes I feel so inspired at one point, the next moment, it's gone. I had this very determined 'pick-up-and-do-something' feeling since 2 days ago, and I hope I can keep up with this feeling.

I came to violently realise that I am really actually out of school, and if I am jobless as well, I'll be doing nothing at all, nothing. No school, no job, no activity. Just me and myself.

People are achieving so much more at my age.

It feels really pathetic. No matter how hard people try to put themselves in your shoes, they are just not you. Listening ears can only probably be a temporary lift off the emotional weight. Unless you allow their advices to be injected into you.

So, if 2012 were to really happen, I think my life will end in regrets. Because I'll be questioning myself, "Is this all I can give?" and have no answer to that. As they say, certain problems can never have answers. Period.

We all contradict ourselves so much, we end up in such a big mess. We either struggle to clear up, or just drown in it. It's a choice. I believe almost everything are choices. Quitting education? My choice. Whether to feel hyped up for work? My choice. What to eat? My choice. How I treat people around me? My choice. Don't say "I have no choice." Because we DO.

At my age, people have already decided on what they're gonna do. But not me. I am not even sure of what I love doing. Even if you tell me that I'm "still young", give myself "more time", I am still panicking!!! C'MON, I'M HITTING THE BIG 2?! Boys my age are going to serve NS next year?! Which starts NEXT month?! YA. I can freaking learn to hold the steering wheel also!!!

This topic is ongoing man.

I must have an answer now. No more 'soon'. Because 'soon' is just the next day, and the day after next, and next, and it amounts up to years. So how 'soon' is soon? PICK YOURSELF UP!

EARN THE MONEY YOU WANT

DIE DOING THINGS YOU LOVE

CREATE HAPPINESS

START NOW.

Colour balls

2011-12-11T22:44:00.001+08:00

Hebe @ Sundown Festival 2011

2011-12-10T14:34:00.001+08:00

Episode 5: The AH? Game

2011-11-23T21:19:00.000+08:00

It's been long since I last posted an episode. Think this was recorded in September, that's two months back. Two months morphed lots of things. I really love moving and still pictures. Because I believe documenting life allows us to keep memories with us forever. You can look back on how you looked like, recall how were you like, and how you felt in that particular moment.

On a side note, I've never been conscious about my weight and my physical size. Until recently, I get a lot of:

"You gained weight leh."

"你胖了"

"You look fatter now."

They never bothered me until the frequency of them got higher. Now I can't fit into jeans that I am supposed to fit in. I look into mirrors and realised slightly bigger arms, tummy and thighs. Now, I can't call this growing up anymore. It... bothers me. I still don't control my food intake though. I believe I should eat when I'm hungry, and not when I'm not hungry. Simple logic, no? This is why I don't have regular meals. I have more of multiple mini meals.

I do not want to regret my youth.

2-day job

2011-11-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

Really feel like asking: Do you regret meeting me?

I want to write. But my mind has no recollection of what I wanted to write about. So.. Let's document my daily routine and whatever comes to my mind.

From Mondays to Fridays, I wake up, have economical beehoon, thinking and worrying about this and that on my way to work. Then, I just try to make the best out of my day. No matter how horrible I feel. Or how bad the day gets (Well, in this case I obviously want the day to end faster and just go home).

On weekends, I slack most of the time. Or go for fleas/money-making tasks/rare concerts. But I'm more of a stay-home person. I'm a very private person too, I guess. And one thing that never misses out in my life is my education. I know people are very concerned about my decision in putting an end to my education. They persuade me, offer me and even tried to brainwash me. I really sincerely thank everyone for caring. But this topic is never-ending. I will let you know if I change my answer.

How I feel recently: To be honest, trash is the word. I feel like I can never do things right. I feel like I make adults quarrel. I feel really bad because people have to be responsible for my actions. I just.. Can never be right.

I don't know what happened to my dear Sheila.

Now, I don't know what's happening to me.

I must stop thinking about "what if..".

Sometimes, you need to think negative to feel positive.

Appreciate.

Goodnight.

Past week's thoughts

2011-10-26T20:51:00.000+08:00

People call me childish when I'm upset. Sometimes, I don't mean to give you a blank face when you're talking to me. I really have no idea why my voice range is so wide. You can treat me like a kid, but please remember to be sensitive enough. Please don't use me if you're so sure of me helping you out every single time. Every time someone asks whether I feel stressed up, I honestly do not know myself. I don't even know whether what I'm feeling fits the criteria of 'being stressed'. Anyway, I'm really afraid that I'm slowly losing my grasp of my languages. I'm terrified. But I don't do anything to stop it. Plus, the balding spot on my head isn't helping at all.

The above was just what I randomly thought of during last week. I wrote it down somewhere so I wouldn't forget, because I wanted to write it here.

I'm still hoping that I'll find something that will save my face. Distraught face I have here. It's horrible. Uneven skin tone and little bumps, not to mention, huge pores. I've been extra diligent on my skin care efforts recently, I really do hope it pays off well. Hoping at least some red marks (looks permanent anyway) will go away!

Happy holiday.

Limited Edition

2011-10-15T15:20:00.000+08:00

Contentment

2011-10-09T01:20:00.002+08:00

Let's say, you have a Nokia phone that looks like this..

But all your other friends have the latest iPhone 4. Even their grandmothers use iPhones. Your Nokia is just noob shit. Their iPhones are completely wicked. It's fast, has a vibrant display, and a camera that shoots awesome photos. Your Nokia photos are worth 2MP, but they turn out like VGA quality. All your other friends have WhatsApp/Twitter/Facebook on their iPhones, so they're easily in the loop. But the best thing your Nokia can do is probably maneuvering your snake to its 'food' on the tiny screen.

But think this way:

You and friend A got trapped in a lift. Both of you panicked. Friend A whipped out his iPhone 4, only to find out that his screen flashed - "Low Battery - 20% of battery remaining" - he panicked even more. Trying to race against his battery life, he quickly touched his Phone app and dialed.

No signal.

Frantically pressed his home button and touched Whatsapp.

No signal = No data.

Friend A was breaking out in cold sweat while you stared at him with your squinted eyes under the dimmed lights, puzzled. He started to try every app in his iPhone and finally.. His screen froze at - "Low Battery - 10% of battery remaining" -

Friend A cried. His smart phone didn't want to save him. He thought he was going to die. You, still silent and staring at him, was still feeling puzzled. What's there to panic for, right?

iPhone 4..?

You fished out your trusty old Nokia and realised, it isn't so bad after all. It has good stamina and makes decent calls and sends decent texts. And so, it saves your life too. Somehow, apps didn't matter anymore.

Hmm.

On the road

2011-10-08T17:05:00.003+08:00

It's Possible

2011-09-26T23:58:00.000+08:00

Sleeping habits

2011-09-20T22:58:00.001+08:00

I really need to stop falling asleep the moment I reach home. Wasting so much of my time away. Infuriating. I don't actually like to shower so late.. But it's impossible not to when I only wake up at 10pm! Huaiiiii. I fall asleep so easily. I have so much difficulty focusing on certain things.

Kkm you need to stop feeling like this!!!!!

Poof

2011-09-13T08:13:00.001+08:00

Can totally disappear from this digital world.

2011-09-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

Wa new Blogger interface like cool. Having my most alone time.

Jie's hair perm

2011-08-09T00:17:00.001+08:00

Before:

After:

A happy fruit ambassador.

Plasters & Light

2011-08-01T21:21:00.001+08:00

Different

2011-07-30T17:27:00.000+08:00

We've all become strangers.

好糾葛

2011-07-24T01:23:00.001+08:00

我

在

難

題

中

。

Wish I'm being cradled by Mother Nature now.

說不明白

2011-07-10T23:49:00.001+08:00

我一直一直一直被誤會感覺非常難受越想解釋就越把事情描得更黑不解釋反而被誤會更深我什麼都不說你們就說我不會為自己出聲我表明後你們又誤會我我不會解釋了我費心思別人都不心領我不求回報可是也想被體諒我不要了都不要了

Episode 4: Men's Bra

2011-07-03T20:59:00.002+08:00

Jun Tian trying to purchase his bra openly in public without shame.

Sickening

2011-06-30T21:30:00.001+08:00

I don't know how I got sick. Experiencing a very bad headache now. Aside from that, I think I can now fully accept people's thoughts and views about me. It doesn't matter now. It used to be "It doesn't really matter" too, but it actually hurts a little inside. I used to think it's impossible to ignore everything. Now, everything is possible.

Most people don't seem like what they actually are. Don't trust your eyes too much. Trust you and yourself.

When people don't listen, leave them to be. When people talk, listen, and process it. If those words enhance your life, keep it in your heart. If it does no good, take it as a learning comment. But don't decide when you're unhappy.

I'm not very sure of what I'm writing because I'm feeling delirious. Are those correct words I'm using?

Midnight rush

2011-06-25T01:59:00.003+08:00

Right now, I'm typing on this old keyboard which feels like a typewriter. I like it. I guess this keyboard has endured through my heavy gaming days when I was in primary school? It's like a friendship that never dies.

Right now, the only thing I know is that I'm never sure of what I want. Almost half of the year has passed and I've accomplished nothing great. I can obviously feel my image getting worse day by day. I don't deserve respect and people ignore my existence. Being ignored is.. Sometimes painful.

10:39PM: Today I bought a full-length mirror and lugged it back home myself, and fixed it myself of course. I'm so handy if I may say so myself. Hahahahaha I think I must be really weird and stubborn. Just finished completing a playlist for the past 2+ hours. Hope it sounds really good at the party. I don't frequently listen to english pop songs.. But I tried my best. Yep. My Saturday feels filled up.

All the best to those having papers after the holidays!!

Swap 'N' Shop

2011-06-18T23:40:00.001+08:00

Our most successful flea so far (especially mine). Good weather and good flow of customers. Good drinks (lotsa coke hahahahaha). Great job everyone! Thank you for the contribution!! Another experience gained :)

Thank you kkm and chen hao who came down too!

我的最佳夥伴, 妳好啊

2011-06-17T23:51:00.001+08:00

我們承諾堅持夢想

Stop and look up

2011-06-14T23:48:00.006+08:00

Was reaching home yesterday and saw this when I stepped out of the lift. It's so beautiful it makes me think and wonder.

It was my dad's birthday. Just like any other day, if you ask. I am ashamed. I never do much for him. Disappointment, anger, shame is all I can give. I know it hurts him when I decided to give up my education, because he believes that I can do much more. Now he has to put up with shame because his daughter is a school dropout. He has to lie about my life. I know he is very helpless now, but all he wants to do is to try giving us a smooth life. All he gets is blame, jokes and harsh reality. No matter how many times I want to apologise, nothing changes. I am sorry.

I am tearing as I write this.

Dash had sudden spasms yesterday. It was so sudden, for that moment I thought he was going to die. My heart clenched terribly. His front legs were so weak he couldn't walk, I turned him over and he just kept shivering. He seems fine now, I hope it stays this way.

This week started ok I guess.

My Cardigan

2011-06-12T23:49:00.004+08:00

My one and only cardigan. It's always with me, and it has a story behind it. It's part of memory, but I brought it along with me. Well.. it's like a piece of timeless memory.

Grizel, I thank you. For everything you've done and listened.

After two long weeks, I finally met kkm. I miss that familiar feeling. Thank you for the stuff you brought back from Taiwan! Now they're unfinished/lost, I feel really bad. Because it's you who brought them back.. :(

And we need a brainstorm. Time is fast. We need all the support and ideas we can get.

My Saturday was more of completing my errands. Like collecting the albums and posters with Grizel, bought things I need (which obviously involved my very horrible fickleness), and did a dye job.

I need to start on the practical things, pronto. I need to stop abusing the words "I need."

"I need to write."

But I procrastinate for days till I reach this page. Every time I reach this page, I forget my thoughts. I need to keep my memories fresh. This is difficult.

Dog day

2011-06-04T00:15:00.002+08:00

I slouched over my table, trying to sleep, but my mind was filled with images and imaginary dialogues. I couldn't sleep. I started to feel breathless because my chest was pressed against the edge of the table. I bolted up. I frowned. I was frustrated. Slouching back, I attempted to fall asleep again. Failed. Turned frustrated again. The surrounding air was humid and dense, in an air conditioned area. I stood up, pushed my chair in. Walked out to the front couch, moulded myself into the seat, laid my head on the armrest, stared at nothing.

"This is not good."

I pulled myself up, feeling rather heavy, I pushed the door. Took deep breaths, trying to get back my breathing pace. I started my journey home. I thought I could catch that bus. But no, I obviously missed it. I sat down, checked the next bus arrival time, "17 mins" it flashed on the screen. Mood, one level down. Pushed my iPod app, but it keeps auto exiting. It just refuses to work. I was determined to stretch my patience. I tried to respring. There it goes, stuck at a black screen with "respringing" and a colourful loading circle.

"I will wait. Since I have 17 minutes."

But my screen still refused to proceed. It felt like a full whole 15 minutes. My frown got deeper. My eyes, almost tearing. They hurt, too. I only succeeded with the second manual hard reboot. Felt like 10 minutes. I waited, with earphones in my ears but only silence playing.

"It better start up before the bus arrives. It better be."

My phone decided to be obedient after deleting a few apps. My music started.

It was a dog day.

Hate

2011-05-30T22:23:00.002+08:00

The hate in this house is getting out of hand. It's horrible.

Last week was really tiring as well, I didn't know what I did? Except for the fact that everyone is hiding things from me. Being kept in the dark is like the best thing I possess.

I actually have something to say but I forgot it all.

Kkm will be in Taiwan for 9 days.. My weekend is gonna be wasted, my thoughts will be choked, my drinks will be still in the fridge.

Recently, I've been recording snippets of my life using my phone's camera. It's going pretty good. I've never took good notice of the sky in my whole life, it's really beautiful. Looking up everyday now. The gradual change in the house just took place naturally without me noticing at all. My dad uses the rice cooker, wash the dishes and even does the laundry now. I have no comments. Am I living in the same house with my parents?

I guess this week is going to be another fast one. Kkm will be back soon!

張惠妹 - 我最親愛的

2011-05-24T23:42:00.000+08:00

Craziest week in 2011

2011-05-17T22:56:00.003+08:00

I just had a crazy week. Didn't feel real at all. A tour guide for 4 days, and a very calm fan girl for 2 days straight. NEVER SLEPT PROPERLY AT ALL FOR 6 DAYS STRAIGHT. 怎麽睡也都補不回來.. 6 days of socialising after my isolation period started, and it's still continuing. A lil uncomfortable. Well, but I've learnt much through these 6 days. Be it the ugly side of humans, or different types of people. Most importantly.. SUCH CLOSE DISTANCE TO SUCH AN UNBELIEVABLE GUY. Wow.

Episode 3: The Failed Hostage

2011-05-04T22:45:00.003+08:00

Today I came home with no mood at all. I cannot even be bothered to be angsty. So I just anyhow ate dinner and anyhow drank some honey wheat grass from the fridge. Then went online.. and started watching the videos. After I watched them once, I kept watching them cus I kept laughing and laughing. I love them so much ☺ So here's Episode 3..

We are going to make them into episodes!! More story lines coming up and better shooting too, since we have a tripod to use now, I think. Some passion I found... Should we make them as weekly episodes or monthly or fortnightly?? I kinda love doing this.

Our hamsters journey

2011-05-02T01:10:00.002+08:00

Our two Roborovski babies we got 2 years back. They were supposed to be living in our classroom, but it was pretty dangerous back then. Every time cleaners came in, they shook their heads and talked about us in hokkien. That aside, our babies were of course, very popular. Everyone came to play with them! Well, it was really panicky to leave the hamsters in school. We were afraid they would get attacked by some pests or get found out by the teachers. So Jun Tian and I rotated to bring them back home.

To be honest, they caused us problems, like whose turn to take care of them and the money matters (Qi En & Jun Tian paid mostly). Ok we admit that we made an impulse decision!! But apart from all that shifting and uneasiness, they miraculously pulled through for 2 years (I think so)! Quite guilty that we did not take very good care of them, we're sorry hammies...

At the later part, they started disliking each other I think cus they kept fighting!! One bitten the other to death. Sigh.. Both died in the end. Hope y'all have lotsa food and water, and fluffy places to sleep in at the other side.

A learning experience for us.

What about it

2011-05-01T00:42:00.002+08:00

I simply do not want to worsen my eyes by editing and uploading the whole batch of photos, so only two done.

"We're going to hell!"

May is going to be really exciting. What's coming up is gonna be REALLY FUN AND HIGH. YEA MAN YEA MAN YEA MAN.

I don't know what to write about anymore. My life keeps revolving around the same things, with always the same misunderstandings. I cannot be bothered to explain further. Every time I say a word, it's wrong, it gets worse. So I just save the words. But I am very fortunate, and am learning how to appreciate mortality, the ordinary.

Dessert complaint #2

2011-04-23T15:25:00.003+08:00

Another round of unsatisfied dessert review. Qi En gets a tummy ache? Jun Tian paid for outrageously expensive tang yuans? Watch it.

HAHAHA sounds like we are doing a comical series. It was great fun! Geannie should join future videos soon. Adventures in the supermarket photos will be up soon.

Shut out

2011-04-18T21:48:00.003+08:00

I haven't been using the notebook much recently, haven't been very updated, stopped socialising as much, sleep too early, lost touch, disconnected, cut off, not fully utilising my days, not feeling myself. Feels like I'm living in a hole. I even feel cut off from my dogs. I tried to finish reading my book but I feel so not in the mood after one page. I thought I found my work momentum but I lost it. Keeping to myself from now on.

Heartwarming out-of-the-blue

2011-04-12T22:30:00.002+08:00

Sudden msn conversations with Qi En and Xing Qin on different days. Siao! How can they be so sweet? :) One said I was never ugly to begin with, one apologised for not talking to me for long, crazy lor!! I miss talking to Xing Qin during the choir days, we were A2 buddies. Hahahahaha. Thank you for making me feel so special and for making me smile. I hope you girls have extremely blessed routes ahead of you. And Steffi for always giving me sweet and touching messages, especially the recent handmade vday card! The hand-drawn owls and the notebook you gave me previously. Everything is kept safely! Sometimes, the unexpected will just make you smile.

To Qi En... I'm always proud to be the mastermind of your nicknames and your epic photos. Remember this..?

LOL.

Sigh our good times...

It's really amazing how we can converse very randomly with many topics and still laugh at many things even though we don't see each other very often.

Wild run

2011-04-10T22:40:00.003+08:00

I love the airport. My first time taking the train there cus there was always someone driving to the airport. I love the feel of the airport. It's always nice to just sit around and enjoy the environment.. :)

Kkm got herself a new netbook and a printer and the strong us lugged them all the way back to her place. Got them started and was feeling very satisfied! We had a heartwarming steamboat dinner hahahahaha.

Felt very awed by this lamp of hers. So dreamy~ love the lighting so much.

Impromptu decision to go to AMK. WE RAN LOR! Laughed so much and felt so carefree. Had some drinks and thoughts.. I love you kkm ☺

Soulmate

2011-04-04T21:45:00.003+08:00

I can never thank you enough kkm~

Though our dream seems so far away, we will reach there soon! Live our lives the way we want. Nobody will recognise us so we can do anything we want anytime anywhere. We are barely halfway through but we're on it! Live every moment!!

Segregation

2011-04-03T21:57:00.001+08:00

If you haven't noticed, I'm isolating myself. Going into bigger thinking and planning. Wish there's a restart button in life. For now, it's just job-concentration and plans on starting up my lookbook profile again and photo diaries to fill this space. I'm consistently looking forward to days with kkm. I'm fortunate to have her in my life. ♥

Others... I think I'll just let it go. There's no need to hide, the dislike is obvious. I am just getting on with life with doubts, criticism and judgement. Thank you for the concern!

JJ Lin Singapore I AM World Tour concert 2011

2011-03-27T22:46:00.004+08:00

I must say I'm very lucky to be able to go for concerts. This is my fourth time attending a world tour concert. This concert happened 3 weeks back and I only remembered about the photos in my camera recently. I unknowingly snapped 166 photos and recorded 2 videos. The concert's special guest was Jam Hsiao who was really overusing his voice that day, it was too much that it actually hurt my ears. Too long a note he held.. Too long and piercing. Hahahahaha but was relieved that he cut his hair! Much better looking.

An amazing live singer. I am proud of him as a Singaporean. Stefanie Sun too, my current favourite!! If she comes back with a concert, I will go! Love her unique voice.

A little disappointed cus he didn't sing much of his oldies.

P.S. Discovered that his side profile is actually quite good looking.

Don't ever listen to my mother

2011-03-26T22:35:00.001+08:00

Don't ever ever listen to her. She is making me look like I fucking care so much! I am not so narrow-minded and petty! Ah whatever. It will be much worse if I keep explaining. Y'all can judge me. Ok? I have a really bad image already so it doesn't matter anymore. I have no feelings. I don't care. I have no future. I am fated to live in poverty forever.

越苗越黑.

Judgmental.

2011-03-22T21:10:00.006+08:00

"Can you stop being like this?"

"Why?"

"Because I hate it."

There is no reason to why we act like the way we are, it's only because we feel like it. It's natural. It's our choice. Perhaps, my actions and behaviour are a prick to you because you just simply dislike me. That is your choice.

I am what I am because I choose to hide behind a mask. Protection, you may say. I might be capricious, maybe temperamental and very unreasonable at times, but I am me. I cannot change the way you see me as because it's in you. Then again, it might bother me initially. If you claim you read me like a book, so be it.

If you certainly think that I am childish and extremely willful, it's because of what you see from me, not in me. If you do decide to deepen your understanding of me, I thank you for your patience and willingness to do so.

Lost

2011-03-21T21:28:00.001+08:00

I want to change my template but I've forgotten all about html and now my eyes hurt.

Edit 10:13PM: Finally found what I want, the plain old template. Do ignore the random header.

我的蔡寶.

2011-03-12T14:30:00.002+08:00

A month back. 蔡寳 I love you so much~

Something irrelevant: -

I am learning to embrace everyday. Thank you for the sarcasm and dislikes towards me. Most importantly, your judging.

人群走了燈光不再場地凌亂

太多情緒鹹得像汗想停很難

諷刺懷疑總是很酸一路糾纏

冷眼冷語不看不管心卻敏感

- 羅志祥《拼什麼》

To sleep with love

2011-03-06T20:53:00.001+08:00

I wish I could sleep anyway I like with a girlfriend, or a sister. Be it hugging each other to sleep or just sleeping next to each other very closely. Then we will unconsciously kick each other in our sleep and constantly tug at the blanket. We will then find our pillows and blankets misplaced when we wake up, but we will still be tucked underneath the warm blanket. A gentle sunlight will shower on our faces and we turn to each other and say, "Good morning" with a smile.

"I had a good night" thought will pop into our heads and we will be feeling like the happiest people in the morning.

If you name me a lesbian after reading this, you're just stupid.

My 17th birthday

2011-03-04T23:16:00.002+08:00

Thank you to each and every one of you who wished me. :)

I met Geannie and Kai outside Barcelos cus we were supposed to have dinner. Ok I honestly thought I was eating with both of them only. I knew Joey and Wens was up to something, but I thought they would only appear when I reached my block. So I happily walked in and found out D2 and Wens were already there with a cake. Aw.

D2 and Wens kept laughing at the dog cake I don't know why??

We ordered the family platter. Woah there were lots of chicken!! Chicken siao. We obviously couldn't finish cus there were sides too. And free flow of soft drinks!! Thanks to the staff. :) Got Hello Kitty items as gifts, thank you Wens and Kai! Then D2's boyfriend came too. Geannie and Kai had to leave first, and D2 & Jan went to find friends (but she left her bag with us), and... left Wens and me. Both of us went to look for them later on and D2's friends were so adorable tooooo. Mr. Holmberg especially hahahaha. I heard his name as 'Hamburg/Homework'.

-Thank you for surprise part one!!!-

Surprise part two was funny.

Wens accompanied me up to the sky garden cus Geannie told me to go up. We went up and noticed two weird figures la. Trying to hide LOL mega fail lor, y'all were trying to run away from me instead!! Oh well but thank you for the sweet sunflower and pizza and the dessert treat! Yeps, the dessert part you have been waiting for...

Juntian ordered for us and we sat down and laughed at funny things as usual, then the desserts finally came. OK JUST CONTINUE LOOKING.

My pizza box with ugly drawings and writings but still love :)

I'm fine with my herbal jelly lor, but jt and qien totally complain!!!! Hahaha jt is filling up the feedback form SERIOUSLY.

Juntian: "My dessert came in a paper cup but it was shown a ceramic one in the menu."

Qien: "I ordered sweet mango but it came as sour mango and my sago is like saegor."

HAHAHHAHA WTF. YEP THEIR COMPLAINT VIDEO >

Thank you to everyone who made them happened! THANK YOU SO MUCH. ♥

Qi En's 17th birthday

2011-02-27T14:03:00.004+08:00

Yep... We had a failed surprise. But I think it was half successful cus she didn't know we would be there. We kinda barged into the restaurant hahahahaha well they were closing anyway! Had a free mini dinner (it was staff's dinner but we ate some, felt so bad), then Jun Tian ate some leftover cake too. I had chicken and some spicy sauce, Geannie had freshness burger. Plus some bubble tea.

Met Geannie first. Spent 70% of the time looking for my earphones (haha sorry~). Then wenta find Jun Tian at Starbucks. Felt like the good old days... It was about 9+, off we went to Barcelos! Yepppppz.

Was really happy to see Wawa too!! She was overly excited and she hugged me so tightly. :)

You gotta watch this below. Qi En's glorious moment. HAHAHAHA DAMN POOR THING. Her retribution. Yes Qi En we are glad you enjoyed it. It was the best drink ever, no?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

不能說的秘密

2011-02-09T23:14:00.002+08:00

Watched Jay Chou's 《不能說的秘密》 last week. He's really too talented. I didn't get the story in the beginning, it was so unclear? I almost gave up watching it. Only got to understand the story after reading some comments posted below the video zz.

The movie provokes thoughts. It made me think what if something unbelievable happened to me as well, but no one ever believes it and treats me like a crazy person (plus make me eat pills I need not eat). Wa siao damn sad please. I will break down t-o-t-a-l-l-y.

Asked kkm what if I told her something unbelievable too, will she believe me?? She gave me a straight "No." hahahahahaha honest shit! But if it was me, I will try to believe? I think. If it is damn exaggerating, I will imagine a bit first? Hahaha. But damn cool can! Travel to future/past. This kind I will believe, and I'll say "show me" so I can travel too. Haha who don't want?

But Jay Chou himself is so unbelievable already. How can someone be SO talented? Other than Michael Jackson la. Being so musically inclined is like God can? Can play piano, play this play that. Like king only! Like nobody can beat him hahahahaha.

Director/composer/host/singer/actor (managed to get into Hollywood somemore!), walao what can this guy not do man. He just keeps impressing everyone.

周杰倫真的超屌.

Tumblr walk

2011-02-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

"WE ARE TEENAGE GIRLS. WHEN WE GO HOME, OUR STRAIGHTENED HAIR GOES UP INTO MESSY BUNS. OUR MAKE UP HAS FADED OR SMUDGED SO WE TAKE IT OFF. THE FAKE SMILE VANISHES INTO HOW WE REALLY FEEL. OUR BRAND NEW SHIRT CHANGES INTO OUR FAVORITE OLD SWEATER. OUR SKINNY JEANS ARE TRADED FOR SWEAT PANTS OR PJ’S, AND WHEN WE GO HOME, YOU WOULDN’T RECOGNIZE US."

See

2011-02-07T15:02:00.002+08:00

So true.

Never dying thoughts

2011-02-02T22:16:00.001+08:00

我真誠的對待你們, 你們呢?

If you think that you honestly treated everyone around you truly, then yes, alright, you did. But others don't, they return you with other things, irony and sarcasm and.. Not even a tinge of true treatment.

虛僞諷刺

You, you and you are just false, pretence.

" When you ask people about love, they tell you about heart break. When you ask people about belonging, they'll tell you their most excruciating experiences being excluded. And when you ask people about connection the stories people told me were about disconnection. "

"To be whole, let yourself break.

To be straight, let yourself bend.

To be full, let yourself be empty.

To be new, let yourself wear out.

To have everything, give everything up.

Knowing others is a kind of knowledge;

knowing yourself is wisdom.

Conquering others requires strength;

conquering yourself is true power.

To realize that you have enough is true wealth.

Pushing ahead may succeed,

but staying put brings endurance.

Die without perishing, and find the eternal.

To know that you do not know is strength.

Not knowing that you do not know is a sickness.

The cure begins with the recognition of the sickness.

Knowing what is permanent: enlightenment.

Not knowing what is permanent: disaster.

Knowing what is permanent opens the mind.

Open mind, open heart.

Open heart, magnanimity."

Inferiority

2011-02-01T13:45:00.004+08:00

Have you ever looked into the mirror and wonder why is it that you look the way you are?

You start wondering why is it you can't look like this or that. Why can't you be taller, have bigger boobs? Have straight/curly hair....

Why can't you be that girl with the perfect life? She's so rich, her family is so rich and she looks so pretty, She has a million friends and everyone likes her..... WHY OH WHY OH WHY?!?!

I used to do that a lot.

Almost every single time I look into the mirror. then they are times, when I look into the mirror and go "Hey... I... don't actually look THAT BAD? My eyes... are okay what? Pretty big. My nose... hmmm can be improved yadda yadda but overall, I guess I'm ok?"

It bugged me a lot. Often feeling inferior and emotional. It got worse when I start looking at girls in the magazine, or some random girls on Friendster (during that time)......

But I kind of got over that phase.

It no longer bothers me as much. I mean it still does but I get over it very quickly?

For example, coming across someone really pretty.... someone you actually do know, not some celebrities or models.

In the past it would affect me for a good period of time. And then I would start trying to change myself to look better. Like wanting to do one million thing all of a sudden. "Maybe I should go for a manicure... maybe a hair dye? Extensions? If I had thicker longer hair maybe I'll look better.....?"

Meh.

Now... I would be like... Hiya..... god is unfair. Start thinking for a bit... and continue doing what I was doing.

The reason why I'm blogging about this today is because I hope girls or anyone would know that looks is NOT everything.

Sometimes, I would have questions in FS like.. "Do you ever feel inferior? Like jealous of your friends or blah blah blah" Or I had a friend bbm-ing me saying she's very sad because she feels that she is ugly compared to a lot of girls out there.

And I try and try to understand them, I want to help them. I'm not a saint. No one is. But it gets me thinking. WHY? I really do understand. But how do I let them know I do?

Beauty, fame and fortune is not EVERYTHING in life.

I'm sure people think "Aiya... of course la, you don't look THAT BAD yourself, that's why you can say that."

Comparing yourself to someone better will only make yourself feel worse. There will ALWAYS be someone better than you no matter how good you are.

I actually googled for someone wihout a face and there actually are people in the world without a face but it's quite scary so I don't wanna post the picture up too. You think those 2 above are ugly, at least they have a face?

Comparison kills.

I remember when I was in still studying and my mum always go like... "You see the who who who's daughter, people in RAFFLES GIRLS LEH! You leh?"

And I would answer back something like.. "Why you always compare me to someone better, the who who who's daughter is a school drop out leh! If you compare me with her you should be proud already please"

Why can't we do the same now?

Instead of comparing, why can't you just accept who you are because you are NEVER gonna be able to change who how you look or your life.

Unless, you are freaking rich? You can go for plastic surgery...

But so what?! Beauty and youth fades eventually....

Humans are born ugly. They are born with nothing. Everything that comes out of a human is filth. Eye shit, ear shit, shit shit shit, urine....

EVERYTHING.

No matter how pretty you are now, it will all fade away.

There is no use trying to be that girl you see on the net, or feeling depressed because your family isn't as rich as theirs.

Wallowing in self-pity isn't gonna change a single thing.

As I've always tell myself and everyone else, a pretty girl might get all the attention at first but a girl with character, confidence and a kind heart will definitely shine... all the way, till you die.

You must embrace yourself and love yourself because nobody in the world will do that for you, well, maybe only your parents.

Start loving yourself because only when you do that can you love another person the right way.

Do you know what I'm saying?

If your boyfriend goes... "Wah.. that girl damn hot...." (Which he shouldn't even be saying but you know boys....) I'm sure most girls would be either annoyed, or start thinking "I wonder if he ever felt that way about me?"

You know why?

Because you don't love yourself enough!

That's why you get jealous... or feel inadequate in some ways.

NO YOU SHOULDN'T NO M'AM!

Because when you do...

That's when you have evil thoughts! Like me..... like you wish someone would splash some acid on her face so your boyfriend would think you're hotter than her.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

No, really. I do......... last time..... LAST TIME LA!!! Wah lao, don't judge me thank you.

Now I very kind. And that is all that matters. I have kind thoughts. I no longer hate. I'm done with hating.

Hahahahahahahaha.

LOVE YOURSELF LOVE YOURSELF LOVE YOURSELF!!!!!!!

SAY I LOVE MYSELF OUT LOUD INTO THE MIRROR ONE MILLION TIMES NOW! Hahahahahah.

I'm learning too. Let's all love ourselves!

- Ding Xuan

My neck is breaking.

2011-01-23T18:07:00.002+08:00

Haven't been able to get a good sleep. Haven't been able to enjoy. Haven't been able to be rich.

Girl A is always happy and beautiful. I want to be Girl A.

The long battle with Dash

2011-01-15T17:50:00.002+08:00

He can never get tired of pulling and pulling and pulling and pulling.................. I'm so tired of this but he's too adorable.

I need to stop giving people the wrong impression of me. People need to stop judging. STOP JUDGING.

Birthday surprise

2011-01-15T15:43:00.000+08:00

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I'm sorry I fail so badly as a person.

My 2010

2011-01-02T15:53:00.002+08:00

1. I dropped to NA.

2. I want to thank my classmates for the love.

3. Thank you Jun Tian and Qi En for accompanying me on the first morning (especially Jun Tian who stayed in my classroom with me for a while).

4. My life plunged.

5. I still got the best Chinese teacher.

6. My results were acceptable.

7. With everyone else going "Really?" at me, I left.

8. I had my first fangirl experience and made new friends at the same time.

9. I joined SFC.

10. I got uglier.

11. I've decided on what I want to do.

12. I went to Taiwan for the first time.

13. I'm filled with uneasiness.

14. I got my first office job.

15. I got my virgin hair dye.

16. I was fortunate enough to experience fine dining.

17. Saw a real life casino (MBS).

18. I've got more people disliking me.

19. My life got damn problematic.

20. My 16th wasn't sweet at all.

Private thoughts

2010-12-26T23:36:00.000+08:00

I need to think.

要飛了

2010-12-15T23:51:00.002+08:00

老娘要飛了! 真的好興奮. 隔了十多年, 又有機會乘搭飛機了!! 哈幸福幸福. 辦公室也有可愛的姐姐妹妹和我一起工作! 愛!

快快快~

Kwee Yong's concert

2010-11-22T21:59:00.002+08:00

Hi. Have been trying to adapt to working life.

So... We went to Kwee Yong's concert last Saturday! Li Hao and Hong Zhou got no etiquette at all lor. Texting each other. Siao. Still role play. HAHAHA. All the best to Hong Zhou (go drink beer first). Hong Zhou talked so loudly, Li Hao kept laughing. Channy, bel and I were so angelic Don't know who want to shout Kwee Yong's name but didn't.

Oh wait.. I think it was me. I did shout anyway, I'm so supportive

Here's our handsome Kwee Yong who earned himself a female fan that night. Hahaha!

Meet Bobo

2010-11-04T21:58:00.002+08:00

Oooohweee~ Haven't been here for long! Didn't even know Blogger's homepage changed. I have an office job now. Yeh, working for now. Plus I have the cutest and most special colleague ever!! MEET HIM:

Most innocent and greedy colleague ever! LOL.

Some plans

2010-10-07T01:10:00.001+08:00

Hello! My last paper is gna be a few hours away, and I really need some plans for my days ahead. And, I just sold my beloved iPod! I horribly found out it was actually a 2G iPod earlier on... I thought it was a 3G all along. I feel extremely cheated by the EpiCentre salesperson at the fair last year. To think I only found out after almost a year. I even asked her whether it was a 3G one, and she said yes. Poof there goes my $XXX. But I loved my iPod. It will be passed on to the next loving owner!

My hair fix is coming soon. My skin is going to be revived too. Hahahaha. Looking forward to my society life. ☺

Adventures at the minimart!

2010-10-02T22:14:00.002+08:00

One day, Qi En charged into the office shouting my name.

Then she was bored.

A customer asked her for London Gold cigs and she revealed her crankiness.

She is delighted by her cigs.

She got attacked by breathing difficulties after smoking too much HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Qi En introducing Ayam brand tuna.

The revenge of the cash register.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA SO FUNNY!! I've watched them umpteen times and they still make me laugh so crazily!!!!!!!! LOL ESPECIALLY THE BREATHING DIFFICULTY ONE HAHAHA WTF. Supposed to upload them last year, somehow I can't put them together so I forgot about it. HAHAHAHAHA I BET IT'S SO ENJOYABLE. Must thank Qi En for permission to post them up! HAHAHHA cus she will be embarrassed!

Leave it here

2010-09-30T18:00:00.002+08:00

I never thought this day would come. Now, it has. IT'S TOMORROW. I'm not sure whether to be excited or confused.

Geddit!

2010-09-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

Yep. That's what I'm talking about.

感同身受

2010-09-12T17:54:00.002+08:00

I want to be braver, be more appreciative, be stronger, be more.. silent. Been getting many inspirations from micro-blogs.

I found this in my lappy's folder

2010-09-09T19:17:00.004+08:00

Stranger: h

Stranger: hi

You: hi

Stranger: where are you froM/

You: Iraq Stranger: Iraq?

Stranger: wow

Stranger: you have msn?

You: How about you de neh

You: What is msn?

Stranger: message change

Stranger: ok?

You: Ohhhh

You: I found out omegle from one of my fellow terrorists

Stranger: i meeting you frist people

You: I see

Stranger: wow

You: I am using my iphone to converse with you now

Stranger: how a

Stranger: how old are you?

Stranger: iphone?

You: we kidnapped steve jobs and stole it from him

You: But apple doesn't want to let this info out

You: we're now making a deal with apple

Stranger: ok

Stranger: how old are you?

You: 13

Stranger: wow

Stranger: m ?

Stranger: f?

You: My name is Iglychan de mustafa bin ahmad

You: female

Stranger: that`s long

Stranger: do use e-mail?

You: What is email? we use walky talky

Stranger: ? You: walky talky?

You: u know

You: the one we radar

You: prrrrk

Stranger: e-mail address

You: sound come out

You: no email

You: we walky talky

You: walky talky? u know you get one we set our frequency same can talk to each other if we 500m apart

Stranger: how about you?

Stranger: wow Stranger: I want to be your good freind

Stranger: how about you?

Stranger: You Good English

You: We iraqies, we get trained english, so when we see the ppl we wanna bomb, we know how to say fuck you

You: I bring ppl to visit osama. He is living in street emases teerts cave with omle and gib dirb

You: i'm allowed to drive here

Stranger: wow

Stranger: fuuny?

Stranger: interesting?

You: I know

You: Many ppl book me for job

Stranger: ppl?

You: come here to tour

You: next time you come iraq

You: i give you tour

Stranger: The war is not happening a lot??

You: It is

You: but i'm living in a hidden part of iraq

You: not on the map

You: we are peaceful here

Stranger: wow

Stranger: where is it?

Stranger: not on the map

You: it's not on map. we call our civilasation mohamad de mustafa

You: but raping and bombing is legal in our town

Stranger: oh

Stranger: what about your life?

Stranger: are you scared??

You: I have 8brothers and 10 sisters

You: one of my sister suffer from krepkrep kao

Stranger: ok

Stranger: krepkrep kao?

You: Krepkrep kao the one with the itchy down there and bleeds every month

You: Hers come alot

Stranger: what do you think about your country?

You: ours only one a month

You: hers come almost every 2weeks

Stranger: what do you think about your country?

You: My country

You: I think

Stranger: I do not understand

You: I think osama is like our uncle

You: he understands us

You: concern about us

Stranger: really?

You: Like our father

Stranger: I think it's a scary country

Stranger: Do you admire Osama?

You: We are partly to blame for michael jackson's death. But i do not feel shame for we have protacted father iraq.

You: that is how i admire him

You: This is one of the 2 square box we have in our town

Stranger: 2 square box ?

Stranger: DO use English in your country????

Stranger: yes or no

You: Only a few people in my town

You: very few in country

Stranger: You use English?

You: Yes. I am one of the few

Stranger: wow

Stranger: i envy you

You: I know many people envy me too

Stranger: i use korea language

You: I am considered wealthy in my country. I have a hay bed

Stranger: you?

Stranger: I am considered wealthy in my country.<- you

Stranger: ?

You: I am considered wealthy in mine

Stranger: You rich ?

You: North Korea is our friend

You: I am rich in my town

You: I am so rich i can buy goat's penis

Stranger: wow

You: not many people get to eat that

Stranger: hey

Stranger: i am not north korea

Stranger: south korea

You: I see you are not our friend then

You have disconnected.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA CHENG GUAN'S CONVERSATION WITH A RANDOM STRANGER IT'S SO FUCKING FUNNY!!! His text is in purple.

朋友啊

2010-09-06T16:57:00.002+08:00

Why should I make you my priority when you barely even consider me as an option? I've got better friends.

同想

2010-09-05T03:44:00.002+08:00

Exactly what I want to say.

It's 3:45AM now and I'm extremely hungry. Want to have mac brekkie but tight on cash. I don't wna be tight on cash forever man. Hate being broke. Really wonder how my future will be... It kills. First national paper in about a day plus. I'm just afraid whatever I read will not come out. Please bless me, ancestors.

What a 'term break'.

Steve Jobs' amazing brain

2010-09-02T19:25:00.002+08:00

Makes me too sick!! iPod Touch now has camera front and back! Apple is contradicting consumers with the new iPod and iPhone 4. How can the new Nano be so so so adorable!! And can TOUCH now!!!! Wtf I want to marry Steve Jobs. Hahahahaha.

Just 14 more...

2010-08-22T21:29:00.001+08:00

... days.

I feel horrible. I'm not really sure whether I should be happy.

Be revived

2010-08-18T23:54:00.003+08:00

But I need it, Lilo. I feel tired all the time. I can take mocha, cappuccino, latte or black coffee. Home brewed, Starbucks, Coffee Bean would be fine. Coke is best. I need much energy to keep my back straight. No more sleepless nights please... I'll go surfing with you if you will just lend me your surfboard.

All scrunched up inside

2010-08-18T23:47:00.002+08:00

Dear ancestors, today I found out what was the product of the papers I took during midyear. It was horrible. I feel like I wasted everything now. Can you bless me more when I retake the paper? Thanks. I know y'all got lotsa blessings to give. I can wait.

Happy birthday Sparky

2010-08-17T19:07:00.000+08:00

I luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you luv you.

Deprivation

2010-08-10T22:47:00.004+08:00

My daily dose. I am becoming worthless.

"你不用費勁欺負我因為我少了跟被欺負的筋我也不會反擊因為你的惱怒已夠讓我痛快" -大S

Side note,

Why Jolin Tsai's Bichon Frise is so adorable!!

So what?

2010-08-09T15:45:00.002+08:00

So what if I'm unhappy? So what if I give up on myself? So what if I hate anything that's academic-related? So what if people think I'm weird? So what if I suck? So what if I'm short? So what if I'm ugly? So what if I don't please you? So what if I'm not smart? So what if I'm not perfect? So what if I'm so unnoticeable? So what if all my friends badmouth me? So what if I'm slow? So what if I'm poor? So what if I like money so much? So what if people don't like me? So what if I just want a breather?

So what if there's no 'if'?

Why do you keep walking?

2010-08-04T21:50:00.002+08:00

Can I feel any worse?

For you've taught me somethings in life

2010-07-30T00:00:00.003+08:00

Aw happy birthday to the qtpie! Thou he seems approachable to everyone, he is still far away. Hahaha I know this idol thing is gna get me nowhere.. But everyone has got someone you look up to/like in life right!!

周杰倫 2010超時代演唱會

2010-07-25T20:29:00.005+08:00

Hello guess who went to see Jay Chou man!! He is indeed very talented. Really an almost-legend in Chinese pop. Definitely worth watching la, so classic. He really damn damn very very super talented. Wonder how talented can he get!

I like his classics, and I do look up to him thou I'm not really a fan. Hahaha Wenmin was still saying whether is he really yaya in real life. But he proposed to you in your dream what!! Hahaha! One good show man~

不愧是周杰倫.

My heart leaps.

2010-07-22T22:02:00.000+08:00

羅志祥 05:29 AM 瀏覽帖子「秀」迷哈拉羅志祥給了我不屑的表情

Jay Chou.. that good?

2010-07-20T20:56:00.002+08:00

Jay Chou 2010 World Tour in SGP this saturday!! FRONT SEAT LEH SECOND TIME OF MY LIFE. Who can stand man!! Hahahaha. I will wave at him on saturday. Not a fanatic of him but oh well~ I want to see his talent.

STAGE @ SCAPE GRAND OPENING

2010-07-15T01:10:00.002+08:00

My cute new friend. Feel like keeping her in a pocket. Why 13 year old so cute!!

UTT LA

My friend la ok.

Queued for.. about 10 hours plus. By the time we entered the store, what we wanted was sold out. Quite.. frustrating. Luckily they restocked this week. So we got our limited edition lanyards!! I don't use lanyards, but it's so cute I had to get one! Next time I'll just bring the lanyard out as wallet hahaha so convenient can.

It was really e-x-h-a-u-s-t-i-n-g to catch a few glimpses of Show Luo please. Hello firstly, I am short. People kept squeezing. My arms too short. Need to tiptoe the whole time. But I was ecstatic when he walked right passed me OMG THE DISTANCE SO CLOSE CAN. SAW HIS FACE CLOSE UP. Why he had to wear shades man. Anyway that was when he came out from the toilet hahaha.

He already left when it was our turn in the queue, but I managed to see him get on the car when he left though. Hehehe Glynis and Yanhui were so sweet to stay in queue for us, they didn't even get to see him. Kept running to and fro to see him. We sit + stand until aching x10 :(

The person who shouted: 小豬走了!! made all of us SUPER -___- at that moment. Turns out he only went to the toilet, I felt even more -____- when I ran to find out.

Still got a lot lazy to describe.

HAHAHA FANGIRL EXPERIENCE. I like it. Felt a lot of indescribable feelings. One of my First.

Bbgirls steamboat + flea titan

2010-07-06T23:50:00.002+08:00

LOL I don't know what I was doing.

Ok only partial photos~ Quite a chore to upload all.

26 June 2010:

I reached the train station at around 2:20PM (was late), and everybody was so sweet to wait for me :) First time at City Square Mall, I didn't know it existed!! Hahaha. Yay so walked to Kichi Kichi where Josephine was waiting for us, hehe we were about 0.5h late cuz of me!

Omg feel too serious, like writing essay.

The food was so-so, but Jolie and I kept taking beef LOL. We kept watching the conveyor belt for beef, dajie and Shanelle thought we were super beef fanatic hahahaha siao~ Rachael almost mistook the watermelon as beef! HAHA. And she almost put it into her soup (is it?)!

After steamboat we went Flea Titan. Wakao, climbing the stairs to Mount Sophia is srsly crazy. SO HIGH AND LONG. We kept complaining about the aches in our legs hahaha, "Wa, seng leh" Didn't get anything from flea :/ Climbing down the stairs was breezier but still ached omg why such staircase exist?!

HAHAHAH MY FAV PART: BEN & JERRY'S. I WANT THE CHOCOLATE FUDGE AGAIN!! We must share ok? More love like that. Hehe

I LUV YALL BBGIRLS <3>

"Because I have something worth living for."

2010-06-29T22:15:00.003+08:00

Omg the new Harry Potter trailer so nice!! So gna watch it!

Kinda lazy to update. Wenmin's birthday celebration pictures not uploaded, bbgirls outing photos still in cam. I especially love the Ben and Jerry's time together!! HAHAHA CHOCOLATE FUDGE SO SHIOK. I'll update when the week is over. For now, go buy from me. CLICK CLICK

Still need to catch up on my videos :( I'm going blind soon.

update:

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Dash says: CHECK OUT MY TEETH

2010-06-23T19:08:00.002+08:00

Some exciting week. Shopping with Joey, Wenmin's birthday party, neighbourhood flea market, bak kut teh for breakfast yesterday. Steamboat with bbgirls this saturday!!

N's in September and I'm rlly excited!! Hehehe so fast I like. Then it's gonna be hard work and dream time already. Ok I'm always blank when I come to this page. WISH ME LUCK FOR PRELIMS.

Anyway, can girls stop pretending to be interested in soccer(world cup) for boys? Cuz it's rlly stupid hahahahaha.

AND WHEEEEEEEEE SHOW LUO IS COMING AGAIN.

Some day with Joey

2010-06-15T23:06:00.002+08:00

DJ JAN IN THE HOUSE YAW. SPIN SPIN SPIN. YOYOYO. HAHAHHAHAHAH I LUV YOU JOEY.

I CAN FLY

人想說時, 自然會說

Plans

Getting our hands dirty

CNY Outfits

CNY 2012

Saturday sales post

My imagination gift to Dad

We're not on the same boat after all.

My 2011

AMeiZING 2011

Sick and thinking

Geannie's 17th birthday

Christmas 2011

Veggie Bowl

Daily Snaps: 22/12 & 23/12

Daily Snaps: 21/12

STOP WAITING

Colour balls

Hebe @ Sundown Festival 2011

Episode 5: The AH? Game

2-day job

Past week's thoughts

Limited Edition

Contentment

On the road

It's Possible

Sleeping habits

Poof

Jie's hair perm

Plasters & Light

Different

好糾葛

說 不 明 白

Episode 4: Men's Bra

Sickening

Midnight rush

Swap 'N' Shop

我的最佳夥伴, 妳好啊

Stop and look up

My Cardigan

Dog day

Hate

張惠妹 - 我最親愛的

Craziest week in 2011

Episode 3: The Failed Hostage

Our hamsters journey

What about it

Dessert complaint #2

Shut out

Heartwarming out-of-the-blue

Wild run

Soulmate

Segregation

JJ Lin Singapore I AM World Tour concert 2011

Don't ever listen to my mother

Judgmental.

Lost

我的蔡寶.

To sleep with love

My 17th birthday

Qi En's 17th birthday

不能說的秘密

Tumblr walk

See

Never dying thoughts

Inferiority

My neck is breaking.

The long battle with Dash

Birthday surprise

My 2010

Private thoughts

要飛了

Kwee Yong's concert

Meet Bobo

Some plans

Adventures at the minimart!

Leave it here

Geddit!

感同身受

說不明白

周杰倫 2010超時代演唱會